How Darkness Defines the Light—and What About When There is No Light?


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IMG_6685He speaks of hope—as we look at Lamentations, of all places! Hope in the dark, which fills this mournful book.

And the chapter we’re sinking into cries the worst aspect of the darkness: the feel of disconnect from God, the kind that leaves us saying, “You have covered Yourself with a cloud, so that no prayer can get through” (Lam 3:44 NIV).

Yet, as he points out, four times this chapter repeats the living word “Hope”! (Lam 3:21, 24, 26, 29).

Still, what a puzzle is its first sliver of light that spears through the cloud cover!

“Why is this here?” he asks, “in this verse triplet ?” (He refers to Lamentations 3:19-21, which he has explained as part of an acrostic, each verse in it starting with the same Hebrew letter).

Why does Jeremiah say he gains hope from recollecting pain and affliction and bitter soul sinking? How could such remembrance give anyone hope?

At first I want to think the prophet’s “recalling” what’s in the next triplet: new mercies each morning (Lam 3:22-24). But no. I realize, before anyone else points it out, that’s contorting the passage out of its precisely planned shape. Jeremiah here is drawing hope from life’s previous darkness.

And so I look back… peer deep into blackened tunnels I never want to re-enter, ever! And within the gloom I do see rays were shining in from this side, though barely penetrating the murk, sometimes visible in there and sometimes not. Mere frail maybes in the dark are what kept me plodding toward a possibility, that indeed somewhere ahead the mouth of Hope opened to full daylight.

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It is the darkness that sharpens the light seeping hope beneath a door. It is shadows that define the light through windows. It is clouds that refract the rising light of heaven into beauty’s colors. While we’re stuck beneath them, or lost in the black tunnel’s longest bend, we can’t catch a single glimpse of glorious display. But once we’re out, what radiance! (Which, before, we might have taken for granted.)

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“Hope that seen is not hope,” he quoted. True. Because seeing is the desired prize. If only we could see what we long for, we think! But if we saw it, we wouldn’t be hoping. Or, put differently, we wouldn’t be exercising hope. Hope draws us on through deep despond, with some mysterious glimmer of confidence telling us it’s somewhere up ahead. And we evidence our hope by our continued plodding foreward.

And, well, yes, the more dark caves cum tunnels we’ve gotten through, the stronger that hope can gleam—not from our surroundings, but within our own souls, even in the Cavern Dismal.

But there’s even greater reason why God puts us in the dark…

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Heart Reflected

Noiseless Within

IMG_1506     “The grass has to stand very still as it holds its precious “weight of glory”—and so has the soul on whom the dew of the Spirit comes. …As easily as this dew, His dew is brushed off—some of us know it to our cost. An impulse of impatience, a sense of hurry or worry allowed to touch us, a mere movement of the self-life against His checking and [it] is gone, and our soul stands stripped and bare. Noiseless must be His Holy Habitation within us. 

–I. Lilias Trotter, quoted in A Blossom in the Desert,

compiled and edited by Miriam Huffman Rockness

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Still Saturday

Of Sparkle and Shine

{I looked out the window this morning and thought of this post, from almost exactly two years ago, and its photos… Because it’s just that kind of day. So, today, a “stilling” repost…}
 

Today sparkles.

It shimmers, it shines. It twinkles in its trembling.

It reflects the light.

All things in this dewiness, moist with living water, glow bright with living light. Even the ragged and untrimmed. Even the blemished and diseased, even the fallen and dying, that have the beauty of the water and the light.

She wrote it long ago, Lilias Trotter did: “It was in a little wood in early morning… suddenly, from a dark corner… there shone out a great golden star!” [From A Passion for the Impossible, p. 331.]

“It was but a low-down dandelion! But it was standing “full face to the sun, and had caught into its heart all the glory it could hold, and was shining so radiantly that the dew that lay on it still made a perfect aureole round its head. And it seemed to talk, standing there—to talk about the possibility of making the very best of these lives of ours.”

I am lowly, yet I can shine. Washed with the living water of the word, sprinkled with my tears and His blood, standing full face to the Son. It happens. The light shines brilliant over me, and I too can sparkle. And gleam. And shine.

Thanking God today…

for the washing of the water of His word

for the sunshine of this morning’s light

for the greater, richer light of His Presence, always there for me, if I will focus “full face to” it, catch into my heart all the glory it can hold, to shine back radiant, myself like the low dandelion in the wood.

for the health and energy to meet the day, enthused

for eyes that can still see all these beauties around me, of earth and sky and water brook, and even a few of eternity

“for the love which from [my] birth over and around [me] lies.”

May your day today, dear reader—and your spirit—sparkle, and shimmer, and shine in His blessings.

Still Saturday

I Could Have Had… !

I turn the key. The engine purrs. I back out of the space and turn, steer out of the parking lot, and punch that habitual button…

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Buzzing static. Clashing word and music bursts. Mad sound collage.

I can’t get My Favored Listening.

I press the seek button, seeking, seeking…

Twangy whine of singing. Press again…

Chain-saw buzz of heavy metal…

And again. (I am after peace)…

Ranting voice, spewing vitriol, conjuring a red and sweating face….

More whine-singing…

In-out interrupting news and ethnic music…

Fading commentary…

And yet I go on pushing, pushing… thinking the next go-round will bring me something worth the hearing.

Finally I punch a different button: Off! I wave my hand to shoo away the noise like pesty flies.

Now all I hear is engine purr and tires’ shhhh. I sigh relief.

I’m almost home. Just minutes more…

And suddenly it hits me: My foolish waste. Near twenty minutes in this futile chase.

Prodigal daughter of time wealth, I could have been having…

A quiet time. Twenty. good. minutes.

Silence had sat beside me, waiting a soul-embrace.

Someone else had, too…

 

When we went flying airborne off that icy backwoods road, my friend and I, and the truck landed right there in that outlandish place of impossible good fortune—instead of where,  with mere inches or wee angle degrees of difference, we’d have crashed, bad—she behind the steering wheel said, kept shaking her head, repeating, “God was riding with us!”

He always is.

If I’d just notice. But I chose noise instead of nice. Catapulting onward instead of settling inward. Driving hard and thinking busy instead of slowing and stilling.

And forfeiting much in terms of peace, and fellowship with Him, most loving friend.

 

The day before I drove, too. Not a car, but myself. Worked like flashing lightning, bolting task to task. Getting. things. done!

It did occur to me somewhere in early stages of this frenetic, I could probably work in quietness if I’d just slow down, not race the clock, not pigeonhole tasks into tiny time allotments barely big enough.

But no, I decided I must get all this stuff finished up. The bit of painting I’d missed the day before, the paint dribs needing to be scraped off windows, the smears on storm doors, the cobwebs in house corners… (you know…)

Of course everything held sneaky unseen complications, took longer than planned, set me further and further behind, left me only frustrated.

So my racing failed to meet my goals anyhow. And I was hardly at peace!

 

Peace wasn’t all I missed. His Presence had been there with me, too. And I’d ignored Him abominably.

 

Sometimes I do differently.

Like the week before.

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Kneeling awkward, paintbrush in plastic-gloved hand, sun pouring warm over rough roofing, sky brightening blue, air as still as a crystal pool… I painted in peace with His person. And thought of another friend, who’d used her painting time on the missions trip to pray in solitude. And Laura’s post about “Mopping as Spiritual Practice.”

It’s often there for the seizing: the stillness of sound and soul, the basking in His Love. I need this, for many reasons. One of them is enablement to “Live (His) Love.” If I soak up that Love, sponge-like, till I’m saturated, the slightest nudge will spill some out. If I don’t, I’ll soon run dry, have little love to live…

{This post is part of a series on “LIVING (out) (His) LOVE,” PART ONE is here PART TWO is herePART THREE is herePART FOUR is here, and PART FIVE is here.}

 

Why I Need a Special “Quiet Time”

She asked this question on her blog today:

What motivates you to spend time with God? Why have you been having a quiet time?

I share here how I answered, because it’s the whole bottom line of Living (Out) Love, the theme unfolding in recent posts*:

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Neglecting [having quiet time with God] is like neglecting to drink water—or take in oxygen! Anything good that happens through me in my life happens by His Spirit’s working. I desperately need to keep connected to Him, for that. And I love Him, and He loves me, and so how could I not want to have time alone with my best Beloved Lover of my soul?

What about you?

Do you have quiet times with Him regularly? If so, what do they contain? Just personal petition, or intercessory prayer? Or do they include thanksgiving, praise, seeking His truth and guidance, listening to His voice in His scriptures, surrendering burdens, drawing strength from His presence, or…. what?

One important aspect of time with one’s Beloved is looking at Him (rather than self), seeing His beauty and greatness, realizing reasons to pour forth His praise.

It’s been awhile since I’ve listed scripture-supplied reasons to praise Him. (I’ve already discovered how there are more than ten thousand.) So, here, today, are more:

MORE REASONS TO PRAISE HIS NAME—

(AND TO HAVE THAT “QUIET TIME”!)

(this time from Proverbs):

  • Because reverence for Him is the beginning of wisdom (1:7;9:10).

(From 2:5-8) Because…

    • He is the giver of wisdom
    • from His mouth comes knowledge
    • from His mouth comes understanding 
    • He stores up sound wisdom for the upright
    • He is a shield to those who walk uprightly
    • He guards the paths of justice
    • He preserves the way of His sanctified people
    • He corrects those He loves, as a father does his child he loves
    • His chastening/correcting is for good, and not to be despised

(From 3:19-20) Because…

    • By wisdom He founded the earth
    • By understanding He established the heavens
    • By His knowledge the depths were broken up
    • By His knowledge the clouds drop down their dew

(From 3:26) Because…

    • Seeking and holding fast to His wisdom will keep your foot from being caught
    • If you do seek it and hold it fast, He will be your confidence in times of trouble

(From 3:32-34) Because…

    • while the perverse person is an abomination to Him, His secret counsel is with the upright
    • though His curse is on the house of the wicked, He blesses the home of the upright
    • He scorns the scornful but gives grace to the humble

(From 5:21…)

    • Because the ways of man are before the eyes of the LORD
    • Because He ponders all his paths

(From 6:16-19…)

  • Because He hates these hateful things and finds them abominable:
    • a proud look
    • a lying tongue
    • hands that shed innocent blood
    • a heart that devises wicked plans
    • feet that are swift in running to evil
    • a false witness who speaks lies
    • a person who sows discord among brethren

(From 8:22-31) Because…

  • He possessed wisdom at the beginning of His way, before His works of old
  • wisdom was with Him before He made the earth or the fields or the primal dust of the world
  • wisdom was with Him when He drew a circle on the face of the deep
  • with wisdom He established the clouds above
    • and strengthened the fountains of the deep
    • and assigned the sea its limit
  • (because) He does not let the waters transgress His command
  • with wisdom He marked out the foundations of the earth
  • wisdom is daily His delight
  • wisdom from the beginning rejoices always before Him
  • wisdom rejoices in His inhabited world

(From 9:10-11…)

  • Because the knowledge of Him as the Holy One is understanding by which one’s days are multiplied and by which years are added to one’s life

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*{In the series on “LIVING (out) LOVE,” PART ONE is here PART TWO is herePART THREE is here, and PART FOUR is here.}

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