Mid-morning, news by phone: the shocking death, the accident, and muddied notions of what happened…
By evening, details:
He’s cutting a tree. It splits…
Time moves, she worries, he ought to be home… She calls, they go, finally find him…
That morning it’s she I think of first and most. By evening I agonize for her, but also think of myself, with Husband of similar mold…
Mind images roll, reroll, like a nightmare loop.
It could have been him, me. Still could…
He gets home, I tell him. I beg never, at least, go do such work alone, and he gives no promise, or even a head nod, at least doesn’t lie, doesn’t false-promise. But there it is.
I pray. Repeatedly. For her, most of all. Then selfish love prays for Husband’s protection, that a similar accident “please, God,” never happen…
Men like that, I know some. Physical, active, little able to confine themselves long within walls, even when sick — whose temperament keeps them moving, doing, accomplishing much that benefits others.
And I know their wives, or daughters, who worry till ill or vainly love-nag — or for sanity’s sake resign themselves to how it is, this particular unchanging bent, and leave it with God.
Men sometimes will just not listen to those who say, “Don’t do that!”
And sometimes with good reason…
Paul wouldn’t listen when friends wept and pled and prophesied ill. Against their wishes he took the road to Jerusalem, which became his path to death (Acts 21:10-15). Yes, he went against their wishes, even against their prophecies — but not against God’s. He understood what his friends were saying, but he also knew what God had said… “how many things he must suffer for My name’s sake… ” (Acts 9:10-12, 15-16).
Christ wouldn’t listen, either, when Peter tried to dissuade him. “Get behind me, Satan!” He replied (Mt 16:21-23), and set His face like flint and walked into His own devastation: “They plowed my back,” “I cry out,” “am weary with groaning…”
Even knowing He’d suffer the cruelest tree and most hurtful betrayal, He went. That took soul wrestling so intense it oozed blood from pores. Then no one could stop Him, and thanks ever be, for the love that constrained Him, love for the Father, and for us.
Considering this, in these days leading up to the time of his crucifixion, death, and resurrection, I continue recording reasons to worship Him (counting toward 10,000):
31 – He is light (1 Jn 1:5)
32 – In Him is no darkness at all (1 Jn 1:5)
33 – He is faithful and just to forgive confessed sins… (1 Jn 1:9)
34 – ...and to cleanse from all unrighteousness (1 Jn 1:9)
35 – He, in Christ, is an Advocate on our behalf (1 Jn 2:1)
36 – He, Christ, is “the righteous” (1 Jn 2:1; 2:29)
37 – He Himself is the propitiation for the sins of the whole world (1 Jn 2:2)
38 – The government will be upon His shoulder (Is 9:6)
39 – His very name is “Wonderful” (Is 9:6)
40 – He is the “Counselor” (Is 9:6)
41 – He is the “Mighty God” (Is 9:6)
42 – He is the “Everlasting Father” (Is 9:6)
43 – He is the “Prince of Peace” (Is 8:6)
44 – Of the increase of His government there will be no end (Is 9:7)
45 – Of the increase of His peace there will be no end (Is 9:7)
46 – His government will be established with judgment and justice forever (Is 9:7)
47 – His zeal will perform this (Is 9:7)